The Beauty of Getting Lost

A friend of mine emails me to report she is feeling lost, having a crisis of identity.

"How about you?" she asks.

Oh, I've been there. Haven't most of us who've hit the thorny woods of midlife? 

Transitions -- they can be hell. But once you get the hang of the ass-kickingness of a big one, they can also be really cool. Like the screaming fun of a roller coaster ride.

I tell myself that feeling lost is just a feeling -- and while feelings are powerful, they aren't always the truth. So, you may feel lost, but it doesn't mean you are.

Plus, I have a theory. Getting lost can be a beautiful necessity.

Every so often we have to lose ourselves to find ourselves anew. It's like renewing our personal contract with our life: renewing values, relationships, visions, missions, and so forth.

Still, when transitions and feelings of lostness and identity shifts come to visit, life can get challenging. Probably because we only put our heads up and look around when we're feeling uncomfortable. Discomfort's gift is a willingness to change and reconsider the paths we're on -- an important reconnaissance mission.

So, in the spirit of adventure and being your full bad-ass self in transition, here are a few questions to consider for the quest:

  • What do you know about yourself that is true?
  • What new truth might be coming forth during this time, to take you forward in life?
  • What can you renew in your own personal contract with life?

Take your curiosity and some good questions with you on the journey. Questions are like your super power, they'll keep you traveling more lightly on your feet.

Here's to your spirit of adventure! xo

Why Is Fun So Important?

During a recent Fun Workshop at my co-working space, Office Nomads, I asked "Why is it important to have fun?"

Here's what the group came up with:

  • More happiness
  • More engagement
  • Interest
  • Creates energy
  • More surprise
  • Laughter
  • Endorphins [PS: laughing is a natural endorphin]
  • Helps change perspective
  • Optimism
  • Curiosity
  • Flow state: Energy out > energy in
  • Creativity
  • More resourceful
  • Freedom
  • Exploration
  • Meaningful connections

 

Imagine a life -- and a job -- filled with this list.

If you could have a bit more of one of these qualities in your life, which would you choose?

What is one easy step you could take -- in thought or action -- that would add some fun, engagement, surprise, energy to your work life in the next week?

Have fun experimenting. xo

"That's My Space"

I was listening to a Fresh Air interview with comedian Joan Rivers last week.

At one point in the conversation, Terry Gross asked Rivers why, after all these years, and 70 years old, she still chooses to get on stage and perform, stage fright included. She answered the question with a great line from British actor Peter O'Toole.

Rivers and O'Toole were backstage somewhere together, and O'Toole pointed to the stage and declared, "that's my space."

Simple, elegant, clear. That stage is the space where people like Rivers and O'Toole feel most themselves and they're doing their life work, playing, feeling engaged -- all that good stuff.

Now let's take this line and play with it.  What is your space -- a place where you move and think and work most naturally? A place where you want to return to year after year?

If you were to point to something and say "that's my space," where would that be?

Are You a Job Slave or Bliss Follower?

http://www.flickr.com/groups/photography_rocks/American mythologist and scholar Joseph Campbell said, "I think the person who takes a job in order to live -- that is to say, for the money -- has turned himself into a slave." I always like the message of a quote like this, probably because I am not one of these slaves -- I've always "followed my bliss," as Campbell liked to say. But the reason why I like this quote is because I need it. At a time right now, when I'm building a new business and filled with all kinds of uncertainty, a quote like this can cheer me on.

But I also feel for another reality of those of us who have taken jobs more for the money than for deep meaning or fulfillment. Some of us have needed it, some of us have started on that path and are now stuck there, not sure how to get out of it, and let's face it -- we live in an increasingly expensive and materialistic world. It's tough to "follow your bliss." As someone who has chosen to -- actually, it's more that I'm wired to -- do work I really like and care about, I feel for both stuggles.

The struggles to do work you don't like in order to provide for a family; and the struggles to do the work you love while dealing with uncertainty, isolation, doubt and fear. And then there are the places in between these two extremes.

I've worked for companies and on my own over the years and I've liked both experiences for different reasons. I like the community and collaboration of a company job; I like the regular pay check, the insurance and generally the sense of being taken cared of.

But it doesn't take long for me to start feeling bored and restless in the routine, with the politics and the same-ol, same-ol.

I got my first clue when I was 23, working at my  first job in NYC, an advertising job, when after a very unsatisfying first year of working in circles I started asking my team members, "Why do you do this? Do you like this work?" My answers were all along the lines of, "What else is there to do?" I found those answers totally unacceptable.

Have I had a better life leaving this so-called "prison" and doing work I like, that has meaning and diversity and creativity? Who knows, but I don't think I am better off or a better person or enjoying my life any more.

I've struggled and been broke, unemployed, lonely and despairing while others have marched to their daily jobs, building their 401ks and getting on in life. However --

It's the right life, with the right successes and challenges for me. And I don't have a big history of jobs I hated or jobs I've been bored at and the changes along the way have also fit my temperament and personality.

I believe we have the life that works best for us, at least when we're making intentional decisions.

At some point in life we get an opportunity to take all those breadcrumbs and patterns and sign posts and start to consider a new way of working, living -- and committing to that. It might be a tiny shift, like working 40 hours a week instead of 60. It might be quitting your job to do that thing you've always wanted to do (which recessions can be good for; many people who lose their jobs are often freed up to follow a new path).

Either way, creating a good working life can be a struggle -- but a beautiful one, filled with surprising encounters, self-discovery, connections and euphoric buzzes of purpose and meaning that go beyond one's wildest expectations.  Even a sense of peace.

A friend recently responded to my biz building efforts with, "That sounds hard." Yes, sorta. But what's harder for me is going to a job day in day out that I don't like.

I care about having a fulfilling working live, and I care about other peoples' working lives. I've been at enough companies where I've witnessed people just not having a great time at work. Some of it is their own choice (we all know those chronic bitchers). But still, what a sad situation, that so many of us go off to our jobs with rounded shoulders and tired souls.

This is one reason why I want to coach professionals. I want to do what I can to help people have more fun at work, feel more fulfilled, use their innate imagination and creativity to manifest a better work-life experience.

Because when you're happier and I'm happier and he's happier and she's happier ... it affects all of us. What a beautiful world it would be if more people even liked their work more than they already do.

So, whether you're a job slave or bliss follower, or somewhere in between, what do you think of Campbell's quote?

What are you doing right now to have a life-work experience that brings you some kind of joy, fulfillment and sense of purpose?

Here's to all of you hard workers!

xo t

Calendar, I Curse You!

My May calendar. Is there a message here?  

This year I've tried to get Organized. I've tried to get on a blogging editorial calendar and fill my weeks with regular tasks, duties and god-knows-what.

In the meantime I've been learning a bit about Time, Personality Types and honestly: Did I need to? The fact that I have failed both my calendaring attempts in a year that's not even halfway over says enough, don't you think?

 

The first calendar was a one-week whiteboard calendar that I gave away after writing down a great schedule for a week in January that was still there in early March.

Next, I moved on to the big lovely monthly calendar you see above. I sprinkled the month of March with an editorial calendar and ideas and that went okay. I do have a bit of a problem following orders, which this felt like. My internal writer self would protest, "But I don't WANT to write about that! I don't WANT to write it today!" Hmph.

April I ended up accidentally doing something different-- I filled the calendar after I wrote a blog or had an idea to track or fill out. I thought it was the best idea ever -- learn from the pattern and do more of what worked. Genius.

And by May, I was over it. It didn't even exist for me anymore, even though it sat there on my working table in all its whiteness.

So screw it.  The only calendar I'm going to have for now is my wall calendar filled with birds, a real beauty.

Ironically enough, I was the "calendar girl" at my last editorial job, keeping our calendar updated and I even liked it. I can actually get organized when it's for a group. For myself, it's a differnet story: it seems to be a more chaotic sense of organization.

Here's the thing: Systems don't work for everyone. Our cavemen predecessors didn't have calendars and keep appointments. Even though that's modern life, so we have to deal with it, it's still not a part of our animal nature.

So if you're frustrated at your lack of "organization" -- it could be you're trying to put your round way of thinking into a square way of keeping time. If it makes you weepy, fuggetabout it and find something that works for you. Get curious about what works for you, instead of defeated (flogging hurts, too).
Then tell me how you did it!
xo t

What's Worse: Multitasking or a Bong Hit?

Well chalk one up for the pot smokers. Apparently, multitasking lowers your IQ by 10 points while smoking pot only lowers it by 4 points. Shit.

 The other night I took the first of a two-part teleclass on Time with the spunky smart duo of Susan Hyatt and Terry Demeo. It's not about Time Management but more about our relationship to time, as in: How do you stop feeling like there's never enough Time, and Why does it always feel like you're never doing enough with your Time (flog flog -- ow).

Until now, I always prided myself on a continual circular way of working and moving and thinking. Maybe this was my romantic way of promoting a darting, undisciplined attention span.

And so I learn the cold hard -- and liberating -- truth: I'd be better off waking and baking than parceling out my mental concentration chunks the way I do.

However, the reason why this feels liberating  is because it actually sounds a lot more relaxing to give a chunk of my focus to an activity instead of being in perpectual mind motion.

And already I'm watching the behavior. For example, last night I'm in bed --  with three books to choose from, which does wonders for my reading -- and when I finally pick one to settle into, my mind tells me "There's some TheraFlu in the kitchen that would be good to have so you don't cough through the night." And off I went.

Classic behavior. Does anyone else ever do this? It's not that I can't sit still, it just takes me a while to get into the groove. And I do like being in motion, mentally or physically.

Still, it can be frustrating and defeating to be constantly darting. I can see my mental acuity passing out on the couch by midday. My working style can be a disjointed romp of: Writing a little here, Emailing a little there, a thought comes in so I get online to check god-knows-what site which reminds me of something Else and before I know it I'm totally lost. Except that I have the breadcrumbs of open windows and browsers to help me back to the beginning. So I've made a teeny bit of progress and off we go again. The writing gets started and then the email, something to check, a Facebook message to reply to and we're back at the multitasking races.

So now the practice is to dedicate myself to a project for a chunk of time and see how that goes.

The main tricks here include: closing my email, not checking Facebook (I love distractions!) and reminding myself to Stick With It. The Stick With It is made possible by the fact that some part of mywiser self knows I'll have more fulfillment, and do better work if I phase out the multitasking and go deeper with each project.

Plus the fact, I gave up pot smoking years ago, so I don't really have a choice.

And I have to admit something: I often get plagued by something I call "stoner's brain." It's when I lose my train of thought in the middle of a story, or I can't think of a word or I act generally spacey because I can't get my thought-life together and intact. I've wanted to blame it on age but I'm not 100. So maybe it's the multitasking.

It will be interesting to see if reducing multitasking will make my stoner's brain go down.

Note: here's an interesting book about Time if anyone is curious to read and learn more: The Secret Pulse of Time: Making Sense of Life's Scarcest Commodity, by Stefan Klein. Some interesting stuff in there, including why time-keeping/calendaring systems just don't work for human beings (did our caveman ancestors use them? no.)

Enjoy your gorgeous IQs and watch that multitasking!

xo

A Month Without ______ [Worry]?

Every once in a while I go on these month-long themes.<em>Try something new this month</em>

They started a few years ago when I was contracting at a job where I was underutilized and bored out of my skull. So I had to do something to fluff my mood up on a daily basis. Hence: the  monthly "things."  For a month I did daily things like:

  • Wear mascara  (hardish)
  • Talk to someone new at work (harder)
  • Tell someone you love them (hardest; freaked a few people out that month)

Lately, as I establish and build my own biz, the monthly themes have come back in a different form: letting go of. A couple of themes in the last several months:

  • Don't think or talk about biz-building (November '09)
  • Don't worry (April '10)

In both cases I gifted myself a time frame to let go of overthinking and do the work that was in front of me and see what might come in. Actually, I didn't know if anything would come in, I just needed to give my brain and psyche a break, already!

I can be a real  fretter and worrier  in times of uncertainty (like starting a new biz and not having a regular HR-generated paycheck). Which is also a bit paradoxical since I ultimately thrive in the creative adventure of work, which comes with a lot of uncertainty. But really, any "certainty" in life is a bit of a mirage, no?

Anyway the point here is to get you thinking about something you can do -- or give up -- every day for a month. And good news! There's a new month incoming in just a few days here.

A note about the Month Theme

There's something wonderfully liberating about giving yourself a designated time frame -- a beginning and end-time -- in which to try something new and possibly uncomfortable. Whenever I want to sit up and calculate my bank account or imagine myself destitute under a bridge, I remind myself that April is worry-free month and that on May 1 I can resume worrying myself into the coma, if need be.

And since I've been worrying way, way less ...

  • I've been more creative, more productive
  • I've been happier
  • I've been getting out into the world and meeting new people more
  • I've had some cool new biz opportunities come up
  • I'm sleeping better
  • More smiles, more optimism, more calm
  • I'm thinking of signing up for one more month. Curious to see what less worry gives me.

What can you give up or do more of -- one habit or way of being that doesn't serve you well -- for just one month and see how life shifts a bit for you?

The space you create for yourself by giving up a dear old-friend of a habit (focusing on regrets; filling your head with "yeah-buts") may bring answers, resolution, the birth of new cool projects and creative progeny.  Maybe even a refreshing sense of peace and a true belief in life's possibilities. Trying something new for a month may kick your sweet ass and out of a rut and show you what you're made of.

Ready, set .... let the month begin!

And have fun with it,

xo